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Wednesday, June 4, 2008

I'm Kind of back and I am MOODY!!!

First thing I have to apologize for what is about to happen!!!! I am so #^$&%*^* IRRITATED AND PISSED off at so many things right now. I am really struggling with some things that are going on right now . It is just Life in general and I guess I am just having a pity party!!! I know that I am always telling people how to lean on God and to pray about everything, and I should not be talking or expressing myself like this, but here are a few of the things that are bothering me right now.

1. I am so disappointed in my big sister Kim. I am irritated all to hell with her and I won't even go into it for so many reasons.

2. I am HOT!!!!! I am now on hormones for my hotflashes and they are somewhat better but my body has changed drastically since my surgery in November and now on these friggin hormones I am gaining weight and I feel like a cow!!!! And we all know what part of a womans life suffers when she does not feel good about herself, so to say the least I am probably not on any , "BEST WIFE", lists right now!!!

3. Our air conditioner went out for two days this weekend and you have to remember that we live in Texas and there have already been several days that have reached 100 degrees!!! But at least it is working now and I am very grateful for that!

4. I am so irritated , pissed off, and whatever else you would like to call it about this WAIT!!!!! There are things in our lives that we need to plan and this living in limbo is really taking its toll on me!!! Good gravy is it just so hard for the dang CCAA to speed things up, we are in our 3rd month of January 2006 referrals , so at this rate by the time April comes along we will be way past that 3 year mark and I can't even put into words how PISSY that makes me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know that when we look into Franceskas eyes all of this will go away, but for right now I just want my baby!!! Sometimes it just doesn't even feel like it is going to happen because there is no "MOVEMENT" happening!!!! I know all of you other waiting mommies know exactly what I am talking about. There are friends that got pregnant right before or during the start of this process and most of the babies are already 2 years old and then there are the pregnant friends (in which I am ecstatic for), that their pregnancies have already come and gone, after thinking at the beginning of them that maybe we will get Franceska right around the time of "your" due date!!! (WHATEVER))))

5. I am irritated because even though I am posting right now, my computer is still not right!!!! I don't know alot about computers except how to blog and check my mail and such so when time permits I will get it looked at. But being away from the computer and all of you has made me feel so disconnected.


OK I am done for now , there are a few other things but I don't want to bore you to death. Thanks for listening. I know what I need to do, I need to go and pray about all of this stuff. I have been so busy lately that I have pushed HIM to the back seat in my life and isn't it funny how since I have let that happen, that "mean one" has kinda taken over my thoughts so I better get on my knees and pray!!! I promise that next post I will be alot more friendlier!!!! Love to all of you.

15 comments:

Domonique said...

Aunt Kristy, I love you so much I can't even explain. So when you are down it makes me sad. You must know that I started praying for you even before I finished reading this posting. I know that it seems that sometimes we are going through more than we can bear but you have to remember that our God is bigger than all of the worries and troubles of this world. I love you and I hope to see you soon.

Domonique

Kelley said...

So sorry about everything...hang in there, girl! The early rumors look good for a late January cutoff date. Maybe we'll only have one more month after this of January LIDs.

It's OK to be moody sometimes. Don't fight it and it will go away sooner.

Sending a big hug your way!!

OH MY #6 said...

OK you, I have to say that I love the expression "good gravy", it reminds me of someone but can't remember who.

I want you to know that you can call me anytime too! You got a friend in my anytime.

You know what I don't know your LID! I am gonna look.

Hang in there my friend. What can I do? Name it and its done cause you are always right there for me.

Lea
xo

Tyrone & Bailey said...

(((hugs))) i totally feel for you! i really hope that everything gets better, and i will be praying that it does. i can't imagine how you must be feeling about this long wait for that sweet baby girl, since i have never been through what you are going through, but i am more than happy to listen and be a friend who has you in my prayers!! here's hoping that things improve from here on out!!

bailey

Buckeyes & Eggrolls said...

this blog says it all for so many!
Sorry there are issues with your sister. I'll be praying about that.

Totally agree about the CCAA.. what is their freaking hold up? There are so many children there that need homes... there is really NO Excuse for all this delay.. not in my mind anyway.

totally hear you to on the computer thing. My laptop is on the fritz so I have to use the computer downstairs. I hate going down "in the dungeon" so I just dont' blog as much.

Thinking of you!

redmaryjanes said...

Hang in there girl! It's got to start getting better here soon : )

Janet said...

Ugh. I'm sorry things are so crappy. Hang in there, girl. Thinking of you......

Patricia/NYC said...

HUGS to you, Kristy!!
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way right now...it WILL pass...know that you have lots of friends out here wishing you well!

Our Red Thread Journey said...

I am so sorry to hear that things have been rough for you lately. Call me this weekend if you have a chance and I'll let you rant all you want.

When you get a chance, check out our blog. We did another Peace Globe and Steven is on our dedication list. Love to you!

Kathryn said...

Hi Kristy, Sorry to hear you are having a rough time, I COMPLETELY understand how you feel about this wait. I wish it wasn't so but what can we do except hang in there.
I think this pissy mood is running rampant among us waiting moms. I know you will feel better soon and it's good to vent your frustrations. That is what we are here for, to support one another when we are down. Too bad you live so far away, I think a girls night out to vent, scream and complain would be warranted right now. Hang in there my friend, this to shall pass. I'm always here for you!!!
Love, Kathryn

Sherri said...

Kristy - I took a small pause to pray for you and everyone else out there who are waiting for their babies. You said just about everything I have been thinking as far as the CCAA goes. Hopefully God will hear our prayers and give them a kick in you know where it counts to move along. Go ahead and let it out, we're hear to listen, pray and help each other though this tough time. If, I only lived closer I would put my arms around you and hug you, so for now you would have to just hug your computer ( ) I don't know how to make a symbol for a hug...lol.
Love, hugs and Kisses
Sherri

Amy Gray said...

Kristy,

Maybe were feeding off each other and not even knowing it!! Been in a huge funk (my own pity party-with the move and all), but have so much to be thankful for...it's so easy to loose sight of our blessings and you are a blessing to me. Even thouse it's been FOREVER since I've talked to you, there's NOT a DAY that goes by that I don't think of you & Kerry. I will keep you all in my prayers for whatever the situation may be. We are planning beginning our drive in to Texas on 6/19. Also, got your last e-mail at my work and have so not replied and am so sorry for that. Kept thinking I would make time to reply and it has now gotten lost somewhere along the other 300+ work e-mails I'm still trying to get to. Anyway enough about that. You can vent anytime and know you can call me anytime as well. I always have a listening ear for ya! Love you dearly girlhead...you're next chapter will begin soon!

lindanuts said...

Oh, Kristy, I can empathize with the silly computer stuff. Sometimes, it makes me crazy.
But you do know and I know you know, that the only change in all this comes from within you. Things we have no control over, those are the ones that that we adapt to--change how we respond or feel, accept for what they are. It will be a tremendous relief for you. Let go and let God. I am sorry that you have problems with your sister. That is difficult but, for your own peace of mind, you must let it go and go forward. Don't dwell on it and let her work out her problem.
I fully understand the adoption frustration. You will get the daughter that God has planned for you and you will then be happy you were able to wait for her. She is perfect for you and your family. The timing is God's plan, too.
I think the worst thing is the wait for a repairman to fix your darned AC. Now, they definitely work on their own schedule and seriously, need a kick in the pants. As much as they get paid, they should be dancing and singing show tunes while they work and they should be speedy!!!!!
I will pray for your peace of mind, dear friend. You need the rest....

Alyson & Ford said...

It is so sad when we know there are gazillions of orphans in China and we can't get our baby! The wait is very hard.
Hope life is happier for you today! Peace to you!

Alyson LID 01/27/06

sara said...

Kristy,

So Sorry for all the junk! I pray for resolution with your sister & i certainly pray for China & Francescka....

((HUGS))