HERE'S THE REASON!

I have deleted every single post about my sister Kim and her life. She was demanding I do that and at first I was not but tonight after I watched a video over at my friend Christies blog, I decided to do so. There was a lesson in that video and that is that whether you have done someone wrong or if you have been wronged, we are never guaranteed tomorrow, so make a mends with those people, so I am doing as my sister wishes and what she does with that is not my responsibility.


The reason for this is that I have been told by her and her friend, that I am not truly a christian woman nor am I Godly in any way, because I try to portray that my life is perfect, I try to portray that my kids are perfect,and because I am also a hypocrite. I have also been told that the reason God is makimg the wait for Franceska so long is because of the "real" kind of person I am. The reason for all of this is because while I was being there for my sister, taking her to appointments, changing my hours at work, and trying desperately to encourage my sister to heal inside and out,and simply asking all of you for prayer, I have been told that I selfishly was just airing her dirty laundry for all the world to see. This is how she sees it and I apologize for that. So many of you have been praying for my sister for two months now and I am forever grateful for that.


As far as me trying to portray my life as perfect, I have a right to defend myself. First of all by airing "dirty laundry", I don't think that is trying to portray your family as perfect.

As far as my kids, I have a poem taped to the wall that I look at while on my computer that reads:


"I didn't give you the gift of life, but in my heart I know the love I feel is deep and real, as if it had been so. For us to have each other is like a dream come true. No I didn't give you the gift of life, Life gave me the gift of you "
Author Unknown


I would assume all or pretty much most of you know that I gave birth to NONE of my children, but on January 8th , 16 years ago a babygirl was born that was meant to be mine, we named her Astrud, she is forever and truly my angelbaby, and so it was...then I met , and fell in love and later married a man 10 years older than I, that had children...a few to say the least!!! At that time Steven was 10 years old and I am his Mom, I raised him until he moved out, fought in Iraq and got married, I love him as if I did gave birth to him myself, there is absolutely no difference in the love I feel for him even if the blood that ran through our veins were exactly the same. My oldest daughter, Chastity (we don't say "step") is only 10 years younger than me , and yet not only is she one of my best friends, she is my daughter, then there is Christopher in which I feel such a complete , magnetic, and unbreakable bond with, he has taught me so much about perservance and more, then there is Craig, that when I see him, or when he looks at me this special way that he does, I feel such complete and utter love and pride. Every one of these incredible human beings make me want to be a better person than the person I was the day before, they each have their own unique qualities, and inner beauty and yes all of them have their own relationship with their Lord and Savior and YES that makes me beam.


I also have two daughter-in-laws , Megan and Amy, and a soon to be DIL, Traci. I am totally in love with these young women, first and foremost because they are totally in love with my sons and as a mother, that is the most important thing to me. It was brought to my attention that while I am trying to portray my life as perfect, my relationship with Megan is not the best, well you know it is not right now, but I do know that I pray that one day all will be healed and that there will be no animosity there, but I do know how much she loves my Steven because all she has to do is say his name and it is written all over her face.


We have a grandson , Joshua and three neices, Jade, Lily and Rayn that are the light of mine and Frank's life, and we look so forward to watching them with Franceska, and so many other older nephews and neices that we love so much.


So with all of this said, even though in every walk of life there is always negative, and bad things that go on I guess these people are right , I guess I do portray my life as pretty perfect, because GOD has blessed me beyond belief, and I do love to share my life with you. I love my God, my husband, my children, my family and my life. And I make no apologies for that.

Thank you each of you for listening, God bless each of you, and again thank you for becoming family to me. I love all of you.

MERRY CHRISTMAS
Love and blessings, Kristy