Dear Franceska

Hi sweet baby wherever you are on this last day of 2007. I would really like to think that you are already born and somewhere in China. My prayers are that your birth mother is doing well physically and emotionally, I don't know if I could ever in my life be as brave as she has been, I pray that she has been excepted back into the arms of her family, I pray that she knows that there is a God who loves her no matter where her life may lead her, and last I truly pray from the very depths of my heart that somewhow she will find peace knowing that the baby she left somewhere is going to be loved and taken care of like she could never have imagined. And that she knows that there is a Mommy, Daddy, brothers , sisters, aunts, uncles ,grandparents , cousins and lots and lots of friends all over the place, that will be forever grateful to her for giving us this precious gift. I want her to know that although you were born from beneath her heart , your were born from within my heart and that I already love you unconditionally and will cherish you until the day even after forever!!

My prayers for you is that wherever you are that you know how loved you already are and that we want to have you home so bad it hurts sometimes, I walk into your room and can almost imagine you standing up in your bed with your arms out to me calling "Mommy"!! I can't wait to just see you,to smell you, and to touch you. I daydream all of the time what exactly you will look like , if you will love me right away or not, I wonder if you will take to your daddy first since he looks a little asian even though he is not???? I pray that you learn right away that we are your mommy and daddy and that you can trust us completely. I know that you will just be flooded with love from your sisters and brothers and everyone else, and I also know that you are going to flourish in all of that love.

I pray that you make it home in time so that your Nonny which is my momma will still know enough to know that you are Franceska and that you are finally home!!!!! Little girl you are already the air that we breathe, it is you that is our inspiration to be healthy and to love life so we can be there to watch you grow up. We love you so much our sweet babygirl, we will be there soon to bring you home, it is all in God's plan and it is his timeline but I know that it will be 2008 that we become a forever family and a complete family. You are our HEART!! Happy New Year sweet girl, we love you.

Blessings, Blessings, and Blessings!!!

Hi everyone!!!! I pray that all of your Christmas's were blessed and as you dreamed them to be. Ours was great, all of our kids except Craig and Kellie were home and we missed them so, so, much. And of course our little Franceska , but hopefully she will be here next year, I can't imagine going a fourth Christmas without her!!!!

Steven was home from Iraq which proved that God does listen and that he loves us very much. Christmas was awesome!!!!


BUT I HAVE EVEN GREATER NEWS!!!!!! Steven will be home for good sometimes in the very near future, I hope soon because him and Nonny have a birthday coming up! Praise and Thank God!!!!! I am so excited that I could just pee in my pants!!!! God is so good to us and we are all so thankful.

I know that this is going to sound quite odd, but with Steven being gone and not knowing when Franceska will be coming home, I always feel a little disorganized and out of sorts so to speak, but knowing for sure that Steven will finally be coming home and staying home, it seems that a little bit of organization will be put back into our lives. Sort of like one down , one more to go!!! Does that make any sense at all to any of you??? Maybe it is just my OCD coming out , but whatever it is, it makes me feel a little better. It is PROGRESS and I will take it in any way I can. Thanks for listening to me ramble on.

My prayers for all of you are a very blessed 2008, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS AND MAY WE BRING OUR BABY'S HOME ALOT MORE SOONER THAN LATER!!!!

LOVE TO ALL!!!

Well we made it to #20!!!

Today is our 20th month of being logged in . I can't believe the wait has gotten so long and that we STILL have a while longer. But the thing I really can't believe is that I have not lost my mind while waiting for our baby.

I really try everyday to keep in mind that though I may be unable to change this situation, I still have control over how I will respond , I try to take a deep breath everyday and remember that while God makes us wait I have to be willing to listen for the lesson that he is trying to teach me. And through this process I do believe I have learned more patience and I really pray that I have gained more wisdom about life in general. God does not put us through anything good or bad just for the heck of it, there is always something that he wants us to learn, and I pray I am doing right by him, for I know the plans he has for us are far greater than we could ever anticipate. And I know he has the perfect babygirl for us and when he is ready for her to come home , she will.

PRAISE GOD!!! LOOK AT OUR SURPRISE!!!

Hi everyone, SURPRISE!!!! Look how good God is to us. I will never know what I have ever done to deserve the way the Lord above loves me , there is nothing I could ever do or say to be worthy of this great love, our God is an awesome God!!

STEVEN IS HOME UNTIL THE 27TH OF DECEMBER!!!!! HE CAME HOME LAST TUESDAY and Christopher, Chas, Megan, Frank and I and also a co worker of Chas's was there to meet him. It was incredible to see him , when I saw him I screamed loud like an idiot, and I know he was thinking: "Mom , Mom , Mom"!!!!! Why so loud!!!! I don't care it was awesome, there is nothing a parent can say to explain what it feels like to see their child come home, I can't even type about it without crying , I love him so much!!!! Thank you God.

This is going to be a long post because there is so much I want to share with all of you so here it goes. I'm so happy!!!!

Here is Astrud's surprise at school!!

We went to the high school , well actually there was an entire entourage to surprise Astrud at lunch, and then we went to the elementary to surprise Jade where they called her into the principals office and you will see on the pic that she is scared to death since she has never been in there before, and then we went to the primary to surprise Lily, and earlier that morning the surprise was for Rayn , and my momma and daddy (nonny and poppy). My momma is in the middle stages of Alzheimers and cries alot because Bubba is gone to Iraq since she really can't rationalize things and let me tell you she was so excited as all of us were. It was all priceless and there was lots of tears and phones ringing in La Vernia,you can even see my daddy in the background all choked up, we are so blessed. I hope you enjoy the pictures and I wish I knew how to put the actual movies on this thing but the pictures tell quite a story.

Joshua and Rayn see Santa!!!

My sister Kerry, my DIL Amy ,and myself took Joshua and Rayn to see Santa and afterwards we went to Build-a-Bear, and we had so much fun!!!

Our Princess turns 30!!!!!

Sunday Chastity turned 30 years old!!! On Saturday we had a party for her and here are some pictures that I would like to share with all of you. Chastity Brooke we are all so proud of the kind of woman you have become, we love you so, so, very much. We are so proud of your relationship with your Father in Heaven, the way you have learned to trust in him and how you are learning to LET GO AND LET GOD!!!!! You are a beautiful woman, keep praying, keep dreaming , keep believing in yourself and know that you too one day soon will find your Prince, and always remember how much WE LOVE YOU!!!

LADYBUG'S ,LADYBUG'S AND MORE LADYBUG'S!!

Yesterday Frank and Christopher were outside putting up Christmas lights and there were ladybugs everywhere and I mean everywhere. I know this is not a very good picture since the little critters will not pose for the camera but even when I was trying to take pictures they were crawling and flying all over me!!! On my nose , all over my clothes just everywhere!!! I had to laugh because when I walked outside my son Christopher said to me, "I never knew I was such a Ladies man"!!!!! Maybe it is a sign that things are gonna start speeding up!!!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!

Franceska's Special gift!

My three older children Chastity, Christopher and Craig's mother Stacye gave Franceska this bible on Saturday night. This gift really touched my heart in a way that words cannot express. This lady completely excepts her childrens love for me and the love I have for them also. She makes sure that I know they are "MY" kids too!!!! When I met my husband it was like a gift to me that he had children because I wanted lots of them , although the road has not always been an easy one, thru the last 13 years or so , we have became a true family. I love my kids and they love me and they also have a great Mom that they love so much, and I really think that the blessings are very many because not many people can have this kind of relationship. Steven and Astrud love Stacye also , so we all share these kiddos and I look forward to sharing Franceska with her also. Thank you Stacye for this precious gift , it means so much to me.

Our weekend with the Gray's!!

Rick,Amy,Garett,Kyndall and Zane
Silly Kids!!!
Amy, Me, and Kerry
Aunt Kim and Zane reading!
Frank and Zane being silly!!


Last weekend Amy, Rick, Garett, Kyndall (Lauren), and Zane came home from Virginia for Thanksgiving and we got to spend the whole day with them on Saturday!!!! The kids have all grown so much, but all of our kids just resumed where they left off over a year and a half ago, it was great!!!!! And God willing Rick will retire from the military and they will be home for good this summer, hopefully in time to bring Franceska home!!!! Here are some pictures, hope you enjoy them!!!

I'm Back!!!!

Hi everybody, after several CT scans and x-rays, enemas, gross drinks that taste like glue, I think my "pooper" is going to start working correctly. This has just sucked!!!!! But I think I am on my way to total recovery and I am so glad to be back blogging. Thank you for all of your well wishes, I can't wait to connect with all of you again. Love and blessings to all of you.

LId # 19!!!!

Well today is our 19th month LID anniversary, and I think that is a good thing because we are moving forward on the highway to bring our Franceska home!! The road might be slow , but we will get there, everyday we get one day closer!!!!!

Hello Everybody!!

Hello to all of my cyber friends, real life friends and family. First of all I want to thank each of you for your kind words of encouragement and prayers while I have been away.

I have had a rough time to say the least. Although it is a little too much information, we are all girls right!!! My uterus weighed 3 times its normal size because of the monster fibroid I had attached, and since the surgery my colon (bowels), and my bladder have been partially paralyzed because of the endometriosis, so 200 % of my pain I have had is the constipation and gas . I truly have never been in so much pain. Just to pee is excruciating because my bladder goes into a spasm, and my surgery was the 6th and since then I have "pooped" 3 times only and two of those times was painfully laxative induced. Walking has been challenging much less sitting and typing on the computer but all of you need to know that I look forward in the coming weeks to catch up on all of your blogs, I know that there are people out there that would think I was crazy but I MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!

Not being sad has been quite the challenge also, #1 . This is the first holiday season that my son Steven will not be home since he is in Iraq, #2. I am not allowed to drive, really not that I would want to because I know I could not do it safely,but being at home and knowing that you are stuck can really get to you. But God willing I will be back on track in the next couple of weeks!!!!

I can't wait to update myself with all of your lives and again THANK ALL OF YOU SO MUCH AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES ABUNDANTLY THIS HOLIDAY SEASON!!!!

LOVE TO ALL

JUST CHECKING IN!!!

HI LADIES, JUST CHECKING IN TO LET ALL OF YOU KNOW THAT I AM AT HOME, IT HAS BEEN ROUGH GOING MY UTERUS WAS 4 TIMES THE NORMAL SIZE AND MY COLON WAS PARTIALLY PARALYZED BY ENDOMETRIOSIS SO ALL THINGS NORMAL ARE SLOW COMING. I GUESS I AM NOT AS TOUGH AS I THOUGHT I WAS , BECAUSE THIS IS PAINFUL. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS, THANK YOU CRISTINA FOR THE BEAUTIFUL CARD AND KATHRYN I AM FINE. ONCE THIS CHAIR DOES NOT KILL ME TO SIT IN , I WILL BE BACK FULL FORCE, I PROMISE.

ALL OF MY LOVE AND BLESSINGS TO ALL!!!

P.S. HOOK EM HORNS!!!! 59-42 SORRY RED RAIDERS!!!!!!

AND WHAT HAPPEN TO THOSE BUCKEYES!!!!!!

I CAN ALWAYS LAY IN BED AND WATCH FOOTBALL!!!!HEHEHE

OK IT'S TIME!!! TIME FOR MY SURGERY, SO I WILL BE BACK IN ABOUT A WEEK 1/2. I WILL BE IN THE HOSPITAL UNTIL FRIDAY OR SATURDAY. LOVE AND BLESSINGS TO ALL OF YOU!!!!

My surgery date!

Hi everyone, I just wanted all of you to know that on tuesday November 6th , I will be at St. Luke's Baptist Hospital in San Antonio having a Total Hysterectomy!!! I have a great doctor and I am in good hands, but I would certainly appreciate your prayers for patience while I am recovering. I am not a "layer", and I know laying around will drive me crazy!!!! But I will post before that so I will be talkikng to all of you soon. Love and Blessings to all.

GO SOX GO!!!!

GO SOX GO!!!!!!!!!!!! Against all of my families better judgement, I have been a huge Red Sox fan since I was in school!!!! Sorry Colorado fans you got sweeped!!!!!!!

Christie tagged me!!!

I was tagged by my friend Christie in Mississippi and did not know it until tonight so here are my answers: (If anyone wants to play email me your answers!! (Michelle)hint hint!!!

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car) Poochie Trooper

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (favorite ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)Chocolate Oatmeal Raisin

3. YOUR “FLY GIRLl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first 3 letters of last name) K-Rod

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) Purple Dog

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Lynn San Antonio

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)Rod-Kr

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)The Blue Unsweet Tea

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers) Julius Edwin

9. STRIPPER NAME: ( the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy) Rapture Tuscany Reeses

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names ) Sue Edwin (isn't that awlful!!!)

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter) Johnson Jacksonville

12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower). Fall Carnation

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”)Watermelon Jeany

14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree) Coffee Magnolia

15. YOUR ROCKSTAR TOUR NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather + “Tour”)The sign painting chilly Tour

Franceskas Photo Album

I have a very special friend named Michelle Wilson ,that handed this photo album to me last friday. What you need to know about Michelle is that when her home burned down a couple of years ago she did not want anyone to go out of their way for her husband , beautiful daughter Lexi and herself because she said there are so many more people out there that need the help. She is my friend but we have yet to eat lunch together,or even go shopping together!!! I have always really respected her and really, really loved her as a person and I have always told my sister Kerry that we really need to get together with Michelle!!! What I am trying to say is that she made this for me "JUST BECAUSE". She said that she wanted to be a part of our amazing journey. She goes to my blog daily and when you read this Michelle I hope you know how special and loved you are!!!

I typed out what each page said in the slideshow. You would not believe the detail that just the pictures do not do any justice for. She put so much time and effort into this and the result is absolutely beautiful. Yes all of you who really know me , have to know that I was a blubbering idiot when I got home and really looked at it!!!

The first page says: The Gift of Life

I didn't give you the gift of life,
But in my hear I know,
The love I feel is deep and real,
As if it had been so.

For us to have each other
Is like a dream come true!
No, I didn't give you
The Gift of Life,
LIFE GAVE ME THE GIFT OF YOU.



The last page says: Today I kissed an Angel

Today I kissed an Angel
I knew if from the start
The first time my angel smiled at me
I gave away my heart
Today I kissed an angel
This angel child of mine
Though not of my creation
My child by God's design
Today I kissed an angel
My heart is dancing wild,
A family by a miracle
Blessed by this angel child.

My card read: I have been so moved by your spirit. Thanks for sharing your "journey" online for all of us to read. Any child would be blessed to have you as their mom! Michelle

mir*a*cle (mir'e-kel) n. 1. An event that seems impossible to explain by natural laws and so is regarded as an act of God.

wel*come (wel'kem)adj. 1. Received with pleasure and hospitality into one's home. 2. Willing or glad acceptance.

There just isn't anything adequate enough to say for how thankful I am that God put Michelle in my life several years ago. I have this album beside my bed , because it does something for me spiritually, optimistically, positively, and faithfully among many other "ly" words that I just can't think of right now!!! The album is beautiful and not just physically , it was truly a remarkable gift that I will treasure for the rest of my lifetime, and I look forward to filling it with pictures of our little Franceska. Thank you Michelle, I love you and God bless you.

It feels so good outside!!!!

Oh it feels so good outside!!! I know for all of you "up north" people you are probably laughing at me, but it is in the low 50's and the wind is blowing and it just feels great!!!! I love this time of year!!! Happy Monday everybody and I pray God is being as good to you as he is to me!!!!

It is done!!

Saturday , Frank and I had our appointment to redo our fingerprints and it was great compared to the first time. We were there a couple of hours the first time and this time we were there about 30 minutes!!! It has to be a sign of the future don't you think!!!!

Our anniversary and the Cyber Shower!

Today is our 18th month LID anniversary, ok the only thing I have to say about that is that Thank God we are this far and thank you God for keeping me sane!!! Ok so maybe I am a little crazy but it could be worse!!!! But for real I am so thankful that we are as far as we are, because there is light at the end of our tunnel, my heart hurts for those just starting , we have certainly been there and done that!!

And today was also the Cyber Shower that I put together for all of us "Waiting Mommies" all around the country and Puerto Rico. My secret pal was Melissa from Fitchburg, Massachusetts. She is the bomb!!! She went to Target where I am registered and yall will not believe this but she bought me the very first thing that I picked out and scanned!!! The lavender blanket with the Butterfly on it!!! She also picked the Bunny Rabbit hooded bath towel and picked out a pair of moccasin like shoes with butterflies on them!!! I love all of it and it is so exciting to get something for your baby , because it makes it so real!!!!

BLESS HIS HEART!!!

All of you that know me personally , know that I am an extremely blessed girl in the "Husband" department!!! Frank is an incredibly super loving man and he is also a truly strong man of God!! Well he just cracks me up sometimes, and yes I know I said that I would be back next week but I love all of you so much and miss you so big that I just had to share this with you. Ok he called a minute ago and said to me that I am a "CULINARY COMMANDO" !! When making his lunch this morning I cut up some strawberries, made the usual two sandwiches and what he does not know but the cup of peaches , animal crackers and chips that were in there were actually left from the other day so I thought what the heck, leave them in there!!! (hehehe)

So the reason I am a "CULINARY COMMANDO" is that he just knows that the reason I put the peaches and animal crackers in, is I knew he would put the crackers in the peach juice and it would taste like Peach Cobbler!!!!! He thinks I am brilliant!!!! When actually they are leftovers, he just kills me!!!!! God love him!!!! I just had to share this with all of you. I know he is joking but just the simple idea that he would take time out of his busy day to call me and tell me that I am a Culinary Commando just makes my day!!! May all of you be loved this much!!! Love to all!

Hello!!!

Hi everyone, I am just letting all of you know that all is ok with me. There has just been a ton of stuff going on , everybody has been sick, or something. I will be back next week OK!!! Until then I pray all of you are safe and that all of you are healthy and happy!! God Bless you.

What a surprise!!!

Yesterday when I picked Astrud up from V-ball practice she handed me an envelope and said Mom I forgot to give this to you yesterday. I saw that it was from a lifelong friend of mine Kathie. You know when you have one of those friends from elementary all thru high school that you really admire and look up to???? Well Kathie was that for me. She has taught at "our" school for several years now and was also Astrud's 5th grade Math teacher. It felt so comforting having her teach our daughter. We started out as Jr. High Cheerleaders together and I have just always loved her. She is one of those people that you never hear a negative thing come out of her mouth ,and her Mom and sister are exactly the same way. We don't even get to see each other and never spend time together but she is one of those people that you know is just always going to be there and I thank God for that.

Well all of last year her husband Brack was in Beijing,China building the US Embassy and he gave part of his paycheck to GWCA, because he believes that they are an extraordinary organization. What a small world!! So she sent me a postcard with the Great Wall on it , a piece of their currency, and a beautiful pair of chopsticks. I just love all of it. Thank you Kathie, you are a blessing in my life.

IT'S ALL GOOD!!!!

A big giant thank you and hug go out to all of you for your prayers!!! My mammogram came back just fine and my colonoscopy was good, there was no endometriosis growing through!!! PRAISE GOD!!! Now I can schedule my hysterectomy. Again IT'S ALL GOOD, and THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS!!!!

This is one awesome Lady!

I went to the Oatsvall Team blog (look on my list to the right), this morning and Gwen asked us to go to her friend Tina's site so I did. And it was truly inspiring to me. I am so discouraged about the wait and there really is no end in sight and then with all of the stuff going on medically this lady touched me in a way that I can't explain. We are all waiting for something. We wait for Steven to come home, we wait to bring Franceska home, I wait terrrified for the day that my momma won't know who I am , we all wait for more money to pay the bills, we wait to buy that new car, we wait for this , we wait for that!! And all along we know that God has a plan and sometimes that plan just does not reveal itself to us in what we would call a "promptly manner" but Tina really put things into perspective for me. I pray that all of you whatever you are waiting for get what I did out of this sweet lady's words. I think she is so well versed and so accurate about God's love , I only hope that one day I am such a woman of God like her. So if you have an extra minute click on Tina 4 Hope and maybe your day will be a little brighter like mine will. Love and Blessings to all of you. I love you all.

Alright here we go again!!!

OK remember the other day when I felt like roadkill because I had a mammogram. Well guess what???? I got a letter in the mail saying that there is a "questionable area" and so I have to go back tomorrow to be smashed again. >>>> Ok so I am a little nervous, I know I will be alright but I sure would like to know that all of my "Cyber Homegirls" and everyone else would pray a little extra prayer for me. Thanks everyone I love all of you!!!

The Good and the Better New is!!!

Ok the good news is that my weak butt rescheduled my colonoscopy for friday since I could not even imagine pooping myself to death today!!! I realize it has to happen anyway but I am soooooo glad I do not have to do it tomorrow!!

The even better news is that we received our fingerprint renewal appointments in the mail!!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!! The lucky day is October 20th which is a Saturday so Angela I will make sure that they are open!!!! THE CCAA MIGHT NOT BE SHOWING ANY PROGRESS BUT BY GOD THE USCIS IS MY FRIEND TODAY!!!

PUKING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!

My weekend sucked!!!! On thursday night I had what I would call a "Gall Bladder" attack , was climbing all over my bed with pain, could not breathe!!! So on friday morning I called my Doctor and she scheduled me an ultrasound , well to make a long story short there were no stones and now I have to have this other 4 hour test!!! WHATEVER!!!
Then by friday night @ 8:00 I was violently puking for the next 13 hours! I felt like shit and wanted to die!! My back and hips were killing me and once again I was climbing all over the bed like a crazy woman! It is now monday morning and I still don't feel normal. I realize that I am not "normal" anyway but oh to feel somewhat normal again!!

I have a colonoscopy scheduled for tomorrow, now REALLY I can't imagine making myself "poop" on purpose. Much less the thought of drinking that stuff nauseates the hell out of me! I really think I am going to reschedule for later in the week.

So I promise that eventually I will catch up on all of your blogs, and I will be talking to all of you soon.

Franceska's bows and neck pillow!!

Today , Kerry and I went to run some errands and we went into this little Childrens clothing store and look what I found!!! A baby neck pillow for the plane ride!! How cute is that!! That is Astrud being silly with it, and then I found these precious little bows in all different colors and I just wanted to share with you. Aren't they cute!!!

Prayer request!!!

I would like to ask all of you to keep my best friend Jessica in your prayers. It is nothing very serious, but she had to have her eardrum cut open today and she is in so much pain. She has had nothing but trouble with her ears for several years. I really pray that you start feeling better Jess, love ya!!

I got an email from Steven

thanks mom cant talk much but i love you and as soon as i get a day off to go buy a phone card(which wont happen til after the end of the month) i will give you guys a call. love you tell strud i said hi and i love her. peace out
-stevo
joshua 1:9

This picture is so old but I cherish it, it is Bubba and Astrud being silly!!! It was like 4 or 5 years ago!!!

This morning bright and early I got this email from Bubba and I have to tell you it might not be much but I love these words. Last night at the volleyball games during the National Anthem at that very moment it was almost as if my arms ached because I wanted to hug him so bad and just as always God takes care of it. Because getting this email was a "HUG" for me. All of you hug your kids today really tight ok!!!

SCcrrreeeaamm!!!! STILL WAITING ON THE USCIS!

I sent off our I600-A renewal on August 3rd and I am still waiting for our fingerprinting appointment to come in the mail! Everyday I run to the mailbox and see if it is in there. I know we have enough time but when we are doing something like that it makes it feel like it is really getting closer, or at least like we are doing something in that direction. I know it is just a headgame , but hey whatever helps???? How long did it take for all of you to get your appointments set up????

17 MONTHS DOWN!!!!

Today is our 17th month LID anniversary!!!! Don't know how many more but I sure am glad we got 17 behind us. It will happen soon, I know it will. Thank you goes out to Rachelle and the boys for making our #17!!! Thanks you , we love you guys.

This may be way too much Information, BUT......

Ok this may be way too much information , but today I felt like this kitty looks because I had to have a sonogram in my "private" place to check for scar tissue and endometriosis and gunk because I need to have a complete hysterectomy and guess what they found???? A big ole honkin fibroid tumor!!!!(which explains alot , to say the least). Then if that was not enough I had to have a mammogram because yes you guessed it I have crap in my almost non existent boobs that tend to flare up , so I was smashed like "Roadkill" like the cat!!! I AM A WALKING FEMALE FLOP!!! None of it ever worked anyway other than to give me grief so it's coming out!!! BUT if that is not enough violation for one person to handle , next week I have to have a colonoscopy to check for more scar tissue and stuff, by this time next week I will have been completely humiliated and violated so please keep my sanity in your prayers!!!!!

Rayns 3rd Birthday!

Technology is a Blessed thing, Thank you God!!!

Tonight Frank, Astrud and I got to see Bubba via our web cam and Yahoo messenger!!!!Megan kind of was trying to walk us thru things but actually technology was not cooperating with the words but by God we got to see our boy!!!! It is super early in the morning in Iraq and he just got off work. He was able to see us and hear us, we just were not able to hear him. Megan was telling us what he was saying.

As a lot of you know I have had the blues for a couple of days so you can only imagine what kind of state I was in when I got to see my Soldier boy, but gosh it was so good to see his face, I wished I could have touched his chubby cheeks!!

When I think of how my Granny went months without hearing from my Uncle Bill when he was in Vietnam it breaks my heart. I am so so thankful for the internet and modern technology. God is great!!!! And to all of you who really know me, you have to know that I had my camera taking pictures of my computer. Frank and Astrud truly think I have lost my mind, I say "whatever"!!!!!!!